Feeling rejected

This pain of feeling. I don't know if I can explain it. I open myself to a man. He is so beautifull, silent, distant. This feeling I get with him is almost as inviting myself to a door getting closed in my face. This attraction is fatal and not new. This longing in me to open him feels like a fairytale. By opening myself to him there is danger. The hurt of rejection. Is it rejection that my subconcious is searching for? What lesson lies there in rejection? When I was younger my pattern was always the same. I get rejected; I remove the man from my life. Leaving Love bleading dry. And all the Love leaking out of me. Like a wounded animal in search for the next prey. He told me he could not see me anymore because of all his attachements and insecurities. He told me and it hurt. How could I Love? with this message of him not wanting me? In stead of closing down rejecting him (back), I could let it flow. Not blocking my hurt, but letting it stream down my face. I was crying because Love was being rejected. Tears for Love that had no receiver. Tears of compassion for my own heart and how beautifull it could still speak. The rejection of this man is a gift in disguise. You cannot force a flower to open. You cannot hurry the Lotus to grow. In the rejection of this man I found how strong Love really is. I can Love...I want to feel it.. Schrijf commentaar Naam: Onderwerp: